ups and downs

its been an emotional roller coaster...going through this has given me a better understanding of myself and what i am able to withstand.  when you find out that you have been lied to for such a long period of time its hard to understand why people say and do things...but when you have been lied to by someone you loved and trusted it can be incredibly difficult to accept and overcome.  each day i try to find peace and acceptance and most days i do ok...but occasionally i still have days where where i don't understand and i don't know why the lies were ever told or why they continued for so long.